Sunday, December 6, 2015

What I Believe ……

I believe in a lot of things, many things that have shaped the person that I am today. Some of these beliefs are listed below …..

I believe if you work hard, you will be rewarded for it …. Eventually.

I believe that if you are running late you will not only hit every single light but will also likely need to stop for gas.

I believe that good friends are hard to come by, and great friends are even harder to come by so hold on to them as hard as you can.

I believe that I’m going to regret not learning to crochet from my mom, tho I don’t believe that enough to change it, sadly.

I believe the more urgent the need to print the more horribly the printer will either jam or not work at all.

I believe the people who put so much effort on religion need to open their book a little more and realize that it’s just a book. It’s a great guide to life but it’s not the only guide you should follow. Especially if you are only picking parts of it to follow.

I believe this election cycle is going to kill me, I also believe that we have let Trump last too long. If anyone else were saying what he is saying they’d have been done by now.

I believe that Hillary should take a Trump speech verbatim and say it on the stump and watch the world implode around her. Then at the press conference about it just play the trump speech and stand there starring at the press like “come at me now!”

I believe technology is fantastic but is also killing us slowly from the inside out don’t believe me next time you are at a Restaurant leave the phone in your pocket and look around. You’ll be one of the few without that box in your hands, including small children.

I believe my family is the most important thing to me on earth, yet sometimes I also wish they’d leave me alone sometimes. Then again that’s why they are family.

I believe that I should spend more time with my friends, however I also like alone time and alone time often wins. I believe one day I’ll regret that.

I believe that Golden's body is one day going to push her to her breaking point and that's going to be a long drive to hold her hand and talk her through it. It may even require a plane ticket. 

I believe in the Great Pumpkin and until Linus is proven wrong I’ll continue to do so.

I believe in Santa, cause frankly a fat man who brings me gifts is not something I want to risk by not believing in it.

I believe everyone has a talent, it just takes some of us longer to find how to harness it.

I believe everyone should give blood, as often as they can, and if they can’t give blood for whatever reason they should at least support financially the Red Cross

I believe that Golden is the strongest most wonderful person I know. She deals with more in an hour than most people deal with in a lifetime. She's my hero. 

I believe in Auburn and love it, it’s kind of a rule when you get accepted to Auburn but I’ve felt that way all my life, always will.
I believe these are my beliefs and in no way reflect the beliefs of this blog, Golden or anyone else, tho it wouldn't surprise me that we didn't share some of these beliefs cause well she's awesome and my beliefs are as well. :D 

I believe my nephews are two of the smartest young men in this world. I believe I had very little to do with their education, but I will take credit for it as my awesomeness had to rub off on them at least a little bit.

I believe that I wrote this when still half asleep and if you had read that post you really would have been moved to act or care, however I farted around (had dinner, took out the trash, played some games) and forgot the majority of what I mentally wrote in my head. I believe that happens to me far too often and it makes me sad.

There are many more beliefs that I have but the thing that amazes me about the last week or so is that I’ve NEVER believed in something enough to die for it. I can’t even fathom what that has to feel like. Don’t get me wrong I’m not condoning anything that’s happened, it makes me sick to my stomach and scares me like you’ll never understand but it does fascinate me more than I’d like to admit. What in the world do they tell these guys to convince them this is how their life should play out ? How lost do those people have to be that this sounds like a viable option ? Why isn’t that something we are trying to fight in this “fight against terror?” I think that’s the hearts and minds we need to “win” or at least understand better if this fight is going to be won.

The events of the last month or so are textbook examples of why I don’t like large crowds, of why I have to sit where I can see the door when out in public and why most people see me out in public and think I’m having a horrible time, even when I’m not.

I used to LOVE crowded football games or going to a mall filled with people during the holidays all laughing and enjoying themselves. Then people happen. Someone upset with the Government decides to blow up a random building in Oklahoma, someone on a mission decides to shoot up a movie theaters, schools, malls, it just felt as if the places that were supposed to be safe were becoming fewer and I didn’t know how to handle it. Sometimes I still don’t. It’s not unusual for me to get home from work on a Friday and not move my car until Monday when it’s time to go back to work.

I wasn’t always like this. I wasn’t always skittish or afraid especially in large crowds. I tend to sit back and observe what’s going on around me, not really looking for trouble so much as if trouble does happen I’ve already come up with about 45 different plans on how I can get out or how I can flip the table and use it as a shield. I’m fully aware that if shit really did go down half of those plans would likely go out of the window. I’d either be the person who freaked out and died that way cause I couldn’t think fast enough to survive or I’d be the person who died cause I was over thinking and not moving fast enough, or the person who would fight until there was no breathe left to fight with, especially if I thought there were other people around me counting on me to get us out.

Things are changing in this world and it’s not all good but I do BELIEVE that as long as we get up, we go out, pay attention to what’s going on around us, and we keep moving things will be ok. So as we move towards the holiday season I hope everyone has a safe, happy, and wonderful holiday with friends, family, and loved ones.