Why is 40 a big deal? Then again why was 10…21….30….
etc…. I mean let’s face it the last good birthday was my 16th when I
got my license. Well let’s be honest that one wasn’t the greatest …. my mom and
I sat at the DMV all day long waiting on them to call my name. It was raining
that morning so we were on the list but they wouldn’t let us take the drivers
test in the rain. The rain was supposed to let up so we stayed. Then lunchtime
came and they gave us a card so we’d be number 1 after their lunch break. We
went to a nearby Pizza Hut for lunch (buffet if I recall) then rushed back to
the DMV. It was sunny and beautiful during the lunch break and they were
getting ready to start calling names (mine was to be first) when it started
flooding again. I nearly burst into tears. Around 4 they told us it was too
late and we’d have to come back the next day. I was devastated but the next day
we came back and I was back at school by 11 with a new temporary license in my
pocket. That’s the last birthday that really stood out to me. There was another
while I was in college that I remember as well. My aunt threw a surprise party
for me inviting my friends to her house. She had invited me for dinner and I
really really didn’t feel like going. I believe Golden talked me into it and so
I went. I ended up having a good time. My grandmother was there a few other
aunts and some friends from school including Golden.
I do that a lot …. make plans….dread those
plans ….. then finally drag my arse out of the house and really enjoy my time
there. I’m really bad about that, or I end up talking myself out of something
that could have been fun and then regret not going. I’m working on it I really
am …. but I still suck at it.
It’s just easier not to and often by the end
of the day I’m just spent and on the weekends I’m lazy. There was a ton of
things I thought I’d get to this weekend laundry, cleaning, cleaning my car,
fixing up some new music flash drives for my car. Know how many of those things
I accomplished ……. NADA. I felt awful on Friday so I went to bed early (was
asleep by 9), woke up late on Saturday, helped my mom wrap her legs, then we
spent literally the entire afternoon making chicken gumbo which was fun and totally
delicious but yeah that was my Saturday. Then Sunday came and I woke up, went
to church, wen to lunch, came home and looked up and it was 4pm … like wait
what just happened. So any plans I might have had were blown out of the water.
Granted if I were better with my time I could do it but what’s the fun in that.
Last Wednesday Vanessa Peters was playing at
the Listening Room of Mobile, a great little place that is 100% devoted to
music. If someone is in there and their phone rings or they are laughing and
talking with their group not listening to the music then the owner helps them
find the door. I’d go to the Listening Room way more often but the shows don’t
start until 8pm --- usually closer to 8:30. I only make it down there when it’s
something I really really want to see and this was Vanessa’s second visit. I
knew when she was coming that I was definitely going but even then part of me
wanted to bail. I didn’t tho and that’s a start. I hope to visit the Listening Room more often cause it really is a fantastic place to listen to music, even if their chairs suck! ha!
I guess in the coming year I want to be more spontaneous
taking advantage of the things that come my way when they come so I can enjoy
them. Like my birthday I guess it could suck more to have people not be
interested in my birthday or to take the time to celebrate me … I just don’t
like being the center of attention. I’m more a blend into the wall kind of girl
and it’s hard to do if everyone is looking in my direction.
What kind of things do you guys avoid even if
you really want to do it ?
Marcy
