Yesterday was weird. I woke up at 3am, which is becoming my norm after
going to bed around midnight. At first I thought I had woken up cause of the
dog next door but quickly realized it had more to do with the evil magic in my
belly needing to come out. For roughly the next 30 minutes I hugged the porcelain
God. I’ll spare you the details. Let’s just say it wasn’t pretty. When I went to bed the night before I was fine. I took a
quick shower, trust me it was necessary, and climbed back into bed around 4:30. My alarm goes off at 5:30 and
the worst headache I’ve ever had was in full effect. It hurt to blink. It was
bad. For the first time all year I reached for my phone and texted my boss that
I was going back to bed and wouldn’t be in (see previous post about sick days).
I immediately turned off all my alarms and took some medicine and passed out.
It would be closer to noon before I’d wake up again. I was cold and achy and had
no appetite at all. My hand’s kept going to sleep on me at random intervals. I
spent most of the day wishing I could go back to bed. After trying to eat
something at supper I climbed back in to the bed around 7pm and watched some
stuff on my phone giving in to the sleeping pill I had taken around 9. Slept
really good through the night until about 4 am today. Today I have felt much
better. I got up helped around the house, cleaned out our pantry it was a good
day. It’s not that I’m feeling better but I’m not feeling worse. If that makes
sense. I still don’t have much of an appetite and while my head isn’t hurting
nearly as badly as yesterday it’s like a dull ache. So I’m declaring myself
well, but not 100% yet.
I keep playing I’m still standing in my head … thanks for that Elton!
Marcy
@beaslma
Today I’m thankful that I have sick days at the office, granted they
are now considered PTO which kind of makes my blood boil but whatever the point
is that while I don’t do it often when I need it then it is there and I still
get paid for today.
Once I can look at a screen again without throwing up I’ll elaborate
on this point but for now …. I’m thankful for Sick Days !
Marcy
So when I started this challenge I downloaded several “blog post ideas”
for those days when I was just spent and out of ideas ……. I never thought I’d
have to use it this early in the game but one of the ideas was “What did you do
to become a famous celebrity.” So I decided to start with this one but I’m going
to put my own little spin on it. I wouldn’t be a celebrity if you paid me in Wild
Cherry Pepsi. The amount of crap they have to put up with on a daily basis has
to suck. I know it …. I get it they asked for what they have and they shouldn’t
complain and all that crap but all that aside all they really did was be really
fantastic as one thing and it can sometimes become a nightmare.
Think about it ….. This is a person who grew up enjoying singing or
being out going and so acting is the area they were pushed into being on a
stage and they loved every second of, well most of them did anyway. Then they
got noticed and someone said hey that thing you love we can pay you to do it. That’s
the dream. Having a job that you love and supporting your family at the same
time. So of course yes let’s do that. But it’s never enough. You do a fantastic
say 3 shows a month so let’s make it 10. Then ten becomes 30 shows in two
months, and so on until that person is no longer having fun but now people are
counting on them to keep going. Sometimes they find that spark that keeps the love
alive other times they just go through the motions. Then at some point they have
become so “big” they can’t even go see the thing that they loved such as going
to a movie, or a concert or even the grocery store. Not to mention that no
matter what they do it isn’t right. They go to a circus and get flooded with people
telling them how horrible a circus is for animals.
My point is being a celebrity sucks. Yes it pays well, and they get to
do what they love for a living but what I’m saying is it can’t be an easy life.
To feel like you are always in a fishbowl has to be hard and sometimes
depressing.
So there you go that’s my take on it, whatever I do to be a celebrity
I hope it’s a fleeting 5 minutes of fame and I can go back to my life, with a
little money in my pocket and a new car.
Marcy
@beaslma
I suck at cooking. Don’t get me wrong I have a few things that I can
cook and cook really well but for the most part I’m a disaster in the kitchen. I
don’t know if it’s a lack of planning, a lack of focus, or if I just get bored
half way through and half ass it but nine time out of ten I burn it, or under
cook it, or both. Have you ever made a pot pie that’s burnt on the outside and
raw on the inside …. Yeah I have.
I tried to make grits the other day. INSTANT GRITS. Cause it was my
mom’s birthday and it was flooding outside and she likes breakfast for supper.
So I tried to make grits, eggs, toast, and bacon. I burnt the bacon to the
point where our house still smells awful and that was a week ago. So I found some
sausage in the fridge and so tried to put that in a pan cause we had to have a
meat. The grits never came together they were gummy and had far too much butter.
The only thing that was really edible was the eggs and the toast. For once I didn’t
burn the toast but by the time we sat down to eat it was stone cold.
My point is it’s amazing how “large” I am considering I can’t cook.
The truth is I don’t eat a lot but what I do eat isn’t always “good for me.” It’s
not uncommon for me to not finish my lunch, or dinner or whatever. I eat a lot of fried food, and a ton of carbs
. . . daily. You’d think that I would be concerned about it, but honestly, I often
don’t think about my weight until I see a mirror or have someone point it out
to me. I don’t feel large but obviously I am.
I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and if I know him there were will
be a discussion about my weight, my blood pressure and other medical stuff I
don’t understand when all I really need for him to do is refill my blood
pressure medicine. On the way back to the office I’ll likely stop at Chick-Fil-A
get some sweet tea and nuggets like we never had the conversation about my
weight. The sad thing is I know that already yet I’m still likely going to do
it. I may even stop at the new CVS nearby and get some chips and snacks for my
desk cause the last few stressful days I devoured everything at my desk . . . .
so yeah time to replenish the stash.
So today I’m thankful for my mom who can cook and kind of sad that because
of it I’ve not learned to cook myself, oh well that’s what UberEats is for
right?!
Have a great week guys!
Marcy
@beaslma
Today I am thankful for the creativity that was Walt Disney.
As I type
this I’m watching The Little Mermaid Live and I can’t help but wonder what Walt
would have thought about it. I’m sure he would have thought, um…hello just show
the movie … what’s the deal with all these humans. I also think he would have
LOVED the creativity of seeing the way they have handled this.
The rumor is Walt is frozen and they are holding him somewhere waiting
for a cure of the lung cancer that eventually took his life. Wikipedia says he
was cremated, however of course Disney is going to say that cause if they
confirm he’s frozen under Cinderella’s castle people would be trying to see him
or get to him. I personally think if he were frozen they would never bring him
back even if they knew there was a cure cause then they’d have to listen to him
try to take over again and they can’t have that.
I’m pretty sure his first words would be something along the lines of “People
pay how much to get into our parks now?” or “what in the world is that bear
doing in the Magic Kingdom and why is he wielding a sword?!” (He’s seeing a Wookie
for the first time after all). Walt was a visionary. He created this world and he
believed in it even when others told him animation was a waste of his time and
talents. He made the first full length animated film and it was successful.
He went down to Florida and bought up as much swamp land as he could
to create the “happiest place on earth” and again people told him he was crazy
for doing so. He had a successful park in California what in the world did he
need with another?
He also gave us the first “live action” movie when he gave us Mary
Poppins a perfect blend of live actors and animation and that was before
computers!
Over the last few years I have gone to Disney twice, once with Golden and last year I got to go spend Halloween at Disney World with a friend
and her family. The detail of everything down there amazed me. Nothing was
over looked and nothing was too small from the “actors” playing the characters
to the lamppost and even the “street” signs and the transportation to and from the
park. It was a feast for the eyes as well as the ears and I loved every second
of it.
So today I’m thankful that Walter Elias Disney lived on this Earth and
that we were lucky enough to enjoy the fruits of his labor, the genius of his brain.
I’m going back to watching the movie. Queen Latifah will be on soon enough and
I love her so much!
Marcy
@beaslma
I spend a lot of my day in an organized chaos. At work I’m pulled in several
different directions in a very short timeframe, then at home I’m helping to take
care of my parents. It’s like a second job, they would both hate to hear me say
that but that’s how I feel. So on those rare moments that I have the time to
enjoy some Guilty Pleasures here’s what I go for ….
- Chips - Of the potato variety. I like flavored chips, like sour cream and onion or BBQ but I also like tortilia chips, corn chips, Doritos, cheese curls, cheese balls, really anything with a crunch. Anything that I can snack on while working, or while watching TV.
- Games on my phone – I’ll admit these are definitely a guilty pleasure cause even on those times where I say I’m not paying for anything I usually end up buying something to get through a level that’s stupid hard. Sometimes I spend far too much on these games, but they are fun. Until they aren’t then I just download a new game and move on. I get real obsessed with the games then one day will forget that it exists then 6 months or a year later I’ll accidently click on it and I’m right back into my obsession.
- Books – I love books, of all kinds. Children’s books, young adult books, adult books, comic books, autobiographies, fiction, mysteries. All of it. I used to want to be a writer. I guess in some ways that dream still exists but often I look around the shelves in my room and realize that I’ll likely never write something as good as those and instead of writing pick up a book and get lost in someone else’s imagination.
- Pepsi – ok let’s be real ….. WILD CHERRY PEPSI …. I take a sip of Wild Cherry Pepsi and I can immediately feel my blood pressure go down, the world shift back into focus, and I can take on anything ahead of me. It shocks me how people don’t embrace this drink. Don’t get me wrong Sweet tea, Coke and regular Pepsi do the trick in a pinch but if I’m standing in front of a cooler I’m going to reach for Wild Cherry Pepsi before I reach for anything else.
- Sleep – Sleep is a definite guilty pleasure cause lately I’m not getting any of it. I am averaging about 3-4 hours a night and that’s a GOOD NIGHT. It is usually closer to 2 hours every other night if I’m being honest.
- Movies – I love going to a movie theater. I love the popcorn, picking out seats, sitting in a room with a bunch of other people and having an experience together. I wish I did this more often. I really want to see the Mr. Rogers movie coming out this month, there’s another one with Chris Evans I saw advertised the other day that I’d also like to see. However I know me I won’t. Then they will be in the stores and I’ll buy the DVD and never watch it. So maybe movies are not my guilty pleasure.
This is a short list and I’m sure there are more and I’m just not
thinking about them at the moment. A guilty pleasure is something that makes
you happy but it’s also something that doesn’t happen daily so you enjoy it
when you can. Maybe I don’t fully understand guilty pleasures. Ha!
Marcy
@beaslma
I just finished wrapping my mom’s legs, she has this thing I’m sure it
has an official name but basically fluid goes down to her feet but does not
come back up. So everyday we wrap her legs from say her upper thigh down to her
toes and back. She hates it. See mom also needs a hip replacement and desperately
needs a knee replacement. Her doctor told her once that her entire right side
needs to be replaced. Which is kind of scary. She was supposed to have a
reverse rotator cuff surgery shortly after Dragon Con (she waited until after Dragon
Con so I could enjoy my trip - mom logic).
She decided the week before to not have that surgery. In her defense she has physically made herself sick from worrying about it, has been on antibiotics for over 2 weeks, had heard nothing
good about the surgery, and it wasn’t “really a problem.” Her knee on the other hand is.
She could live without the shoulder - she has learned to work around it - but the knee has gotten to a critical
moment where she HAS TO HAVE IT DONE. When she stands up and puts weight on
that leg you can hear her knee cracking and buckling, over the television in
the room. It breaks my heart. Her doctor believes that her hip needs to take
priority. He thinks a good deal of her pain, not all of it mind you, is coming
from her hip and doing the hip first will make the knee easier.
So the hip comes first. In early December she will have her hip
replaced. We don’t know if it’s a full replacement, partial replacement or what
that’s a question for the next visit. He seems to think 3 days in hospital a
few weeks of rehab and by March we are doing the knee. I was like whoa let’s
slow down there for a minute sir. Mom is so sick of being in pain, I can’t wait
until she’s through with all this mess and on the other side of it. I pray that
2020 is the year of healing for her and getting her back to living not just
existing.
As you know my partner in crime is a true medical marvel and has had
more medical people around her than Dead Pools at Dragon Con and while they
haven’t always been “GREAT” many that she has come across truly want to make a difference
and fight for her when a fight is necessary. I wish more were like that in
every day life but especially in the medical field.
So on today I am thinking for people who go into the medical
profession to make life easier, better for others. Those who saw a problem like
my mom’s fluid issue and realizing that wrapping legs with ace bandages would
help with that respect. I keep thinking there has to be a better way but this
way seems to be doing the trick so why mess with it.
Marcy
@beaslma
