As you are all aware this weekend marks Mother’s Day here in the US.
Mother’s day is special unlike any other cause let’s face it, other than the
doctor who slapped us on the arse our Mom is the first one to really get a
chance to hold us. That loving embrace right after birth is one that none of us
remember but we always remember that lady who embraced us.
It’s funny to me that this all started cause a daughter wanted to
honor her Mother. Did you know that Mother’s Day was first celebrated in 1908
when a woman named Anna Jarvis, pictured, held a memorial for her mom at church. In 1905 Ms.
Jarvis started her campaign to turn Mother’s Day into a holiday because she
believed a Mother was “the person who has done more for you than anyone in the
world.” She’s not wrong.
I think back lovingly on my mom and the years of sacrifice, meals,
cleaning, protection, and shoulders to cry on that she gave me. I also think
back on my grandmother who helped instill those characteristics into my mom and
thus into me. She will and has always been my biggest cheerleader. This is my favorite picture of me and my mom. I don't recall what she was telling me, likely it was let dad take your picture then you can go and play, but she always made me feel like I was one of the most important things in her life. God knows she is that for me. I likely am for her too but then again she does have my brother so she can't say it. My mom has been through hell and back health wise the last few years and I'm so proud of how far she has come. Each day she gets a little stronger and a little more independent and it's been a belssing to witness.
This year is different as all are aware but not really. My brother and
his family will be coming over, his Mother-in-law will be joining us, so at our
house we are carrying on as usual. This fills me with more anxiety than I’d
like to admit. I’ve created this pretty protective cover around my parents
during the COVID-19 mess and while they have ventured out a few times for
doctors appointments and such they’ve stuck pretty close to home which is all I
asked of them. They have been wearing masks even before wearing a mask was cool,
again at my request. I myself have only left the house twice and both times
stayed in the car. My brother however is still working daily, my sister in law
goes into the office 2 or 3 days a week, my nephew just got back from gathering
his stuff in Auburn for the summer and my brother’s MIL just got back from
Nashville taking her granddaughter home who had been staying with her a few
weeks.
I’ve almost resigned myself to the “either we get it or we don’t at
this point” mentality but I’m still trying to remain vigilant. I want to enjoy
tomorrow cause frankly I miss my family but I also know if that if my mom or
dad or even I get it then it’s my cross to bear not theirs. It’s me that will
have to deal wit the aftermath not them. I pray that we don’t get it, I pray
that if we do it will not be that bad but frankly that’s all I can do at this
point.
Sometime next week I’m going to have to go out into the office cause a
client requested a hard copy of a submittal instead of electronic. I hope to be
there less than an hour. I’ll wear gloves and my mask the entire time. Again I expect
a few panic attacks but I have to start getting used to the idea of leaving
this house. Of venturing out into the world again, of being around people and
it turning out ok.
My state’s Gov is opening up the state on Monday there’s some
limitations on what people can and can’t do for sure but for the most part it’s
business as usual. I pray it’s not too early, I pray we aren’t all jumping the
gun, and I pray that a round two isn’t around the corner. I also pray hard that
Dragon Con will be able to move forward and if it’s not then they will make the
call in time for me to cancel my reservation. I just don’t think it’s in the
cards for Golden and I to be in a host hotel and that’s a damn shame.
Anyway celebrate your mom, enjoy the time you get to spend with her,
call you grandmother if you can too, and to those of you that are mothers …..
have a wonderful day surrounded by love. PS that's Golden's mom above .... she's like a second mother to me and worries and cares about me as much as my own mom and sometimes more so than Golden, who will totally be cool with me including a picture of a little G. HA!
Thank you for all you do and thank you Anna for giving us a day to celebrate
them fully the way they deserve.
Marcy
At least
according to my preacher today is Palm Sunday. I’m still trying to get used to
the fact that April is finally here. March can suck it. That was just the worst
I mean the worst. Tho I’m side eyeing April real hard cause it isn’t looking any
better.
I haven’t left my
house since March 15th when we got home from Church. Our boss made
the call that afternoon that our department was to work from home that week.
See he didn’t want to risk his family by coming into a busy office building holding
some 500 people and if he didn’t want to do it he wasn’t going to ask us to do
it. BOSS OF THE YEAR! We had done it before when our building had a plumbing
issue and half our floor flooded out. We could do it again. The following week
he decided it was working and we would continue as long as it was working. If
we needed to run in for something do it. If we wanted to go into the office and
work we could do that too. He was leaving that week up to us but he strongly advised
we stay the course. On March 27th the firm CEO decided that all
office employees that could work remotely should be working remotely, until further
notice. So now all our coworkers are doing the same.
My firm should be
really upset by how much I have enjoyed my working from home during this
pandemic. I have found it surprisingly easy and I’m getting a lot done without
all the daily work-related/non-work-related distractions that occur in the work
place. I’m also forgetting to go to lunch. Sometimes I look up and it’s 1:30 so
I’ll run downstairs fix me a sandwich and get back to what I was doing. However
just about every night, with one really dumb exception, I have logged off at 5 without
a care in the world. See I used to work until about 5:30/6 to avoid the majority
of drive home traffic. I also used to get to work around 7:30 and now I’m “getting
to work” around 7. So I think it’s all about the same.
Most of our
clients have accepted digital submissions with the exception of a few whom I won’t
name here but there’s a special place in hell for them should my boss get sick.
See he didn’t want us out and about. So he went to good ole Amazon and bought
himself a puncher and binder machine, some paper, CDs, Ink etc., and he
produces the packages as we email them to him and he prints/punches/binds. Then
takes them to the Fed Ex place for mailing. Again can I say BOSS OF THE YEAR! So
far our group hasn’t missed a deadline. Our group is like a well oiled machine
and so I don’t expect us to miss one but you have to include the so far just
incase. We have had several “check-in” meetings to see how everyone is doing,
to be assigned new submittals etc., so in other words. Business as usual.
That’s kind of
how I feel about the world these days. My state has issued a “stay at home
order” but it really only applies at night from like 5pm to 10am. She also announced that if everyone complied we "might" get to have football this fall. I was like really!? really!? but it did get a lot of attention. Sigh ....from the
sounds of the cars driving by football be damned! If
you do get caught out and about just be smart enough to say I’m going to the
grocery for supplies, or I’m going to the drug store to get some medicine for
my fill-in-blank and you are good to go. My family started using SHIPT long ago
and continue to use it today. We got a delivery yesterday and while they were
out of a lot of things it went well. All the SHIPT people are super nice and
really helpful. God love em.
I don’t know if
you saw it or not but Golden blogged the other day after she was put on
lockdown by her doctor for having a fever for a few days straight. She didn't take the test cause well they didn't have one for her to take. Her doctor said if her symptoms got worse to call immediately. Not gonna lie I think it
freaked us both out. We are both a little concerned now that she is getting
ready to reenter the world and go back to work on Monday. However unlike her I have
been far less productive with my “quarrentine”. This morning I did clean out my
car. Something that was necessary as I fished out a Halloween costume so yeah
that was long over due to come out. Yesterday I did literally nothing. ALL DAY.
I recently bought myself a Nintendo Switch and literally played it all day
long. Except for that short time when I took a shower … you know …. To break up
the day. I can not tell you the last time I spent an entrie day literally doing nothing. I just have ZERO desire to do anything. Even when I start doing
something I want to do I immediately don’t want to do it and either stop or
rush through it just to get it over with.
I think I’m
mentally exhausted. My brain is processing so fast I can’t see straight
sometimes. I feel like I’m constantly going from the second my feet hit the
floor to the point that when I do wake up I lay in my bed for at least an hour
before finally dragging myself out of the bed to start the day. This is not a
good habit and I need to break it sooner than later. It's like everything i have looked forward to, Invictus Games, NCAA basketball, NCAA gymnastics regionals/championships, Olympics Easter fun (dinner with family/annual Easter Egg hunt) has been canceled so what's the point in everything else continuing. Ok that's dramatic. The Olympics and Invictus will continue next year but yeah that's like a whole year away. I just have for lack of other way to phrase this a Case of the Monday's all damn week.
On a purely
selfish note let me add if this Rona fucks up my Dragon Con Vacay in Sep/Aug I’m
gonna be real pissed. I mean Rona has been an irritation, and at times a real
annoyance but that’s just crossing the line. On the other hand other Cons are
getting cancelled and people are going to want to get their fix so …. Dragon
Con might be more crowed than usual but you know what forget that I’m going and
I’m going to enjoy myself damit!
Anyway happy Palm
Sunday…….. tell the Easter Bunny to skip your house this year cause he might
have Rona!
Marcy
